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05 September 2013 @ 11:00 pm
give me characters and/or a pairing and prompt and i'll write a sentence about that shit yeaaaaah
 
 
 
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14 June 2013 @ 02:11 am
don't talk to me about art where the subject is underwater i will lOSE MY SHIT

but no i just wanted to make an entry since i don't feel like spamming twitter or plurk about this...

it's so #firstworldproblem but my mom asked me what i wanted to do for my birthday and i have absolutely no idea. the problem is that my dad and aunt aren't going to be able to come here for my birthday, and they're usually the ones who cook shit LMFAO. without them, i don't know where i want to eat and shit. the first two things i thought of were either a super fancy japanese place in one of the hotels on the strip here or one of the ramen places in china town. i changed my mind on both of those since 1) i want to show my dad the super fancy japanese place, and 2) going for ramen is fun and tasty but it wouldn't feel that special since i go there all the time SCREAMS.

at the very least i think i have an idea of what i want to do when my friends come over but before we eat. i have the twilight movie and almost all the inuyasha movies, so i think i'll pop those in and we can just laugh and make fun of shit. tbh i'd want to do a nicolas cage movie marathon but i don't think we have netflix... alas.

so i'll be turning 19! i guess that's pretty cool. idk i just like getting shit i guess.... and my birthday is in pretty much half a month. weird. i would say this month is going by fast but honestly this week has been really dragging for me, i've been so bored. there's a lot of things i should and could be doing, but instead i do nothing but refresh rpanons and wankgate and tumblr. go me.

i think i'll try to get through 'drugs & the dominos' of baccano! though. i've always wanted to read the part where eve becomes a little miss badass.
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27 September 2012 @ 01:49 am
BUT FOR NOW--

I CAN'T STOP )
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i wish i wasn't such a clingy person. when it comes to certain people i feel like i'm incapable of being okay with them having fun without me. or i get jealous of them regarding things completely unrelated to me. i wish i could stop being so petty and getting upset all the time from it. :(

OKAY ENOUGH ANGST THOUGH I HAVE A FUNNY STORY THIS TIME

so since last saturday my parents' friend and her kids suddenly started staying with us. i know she's been having trouble with her husband for the last year now more or less but i feel like i'm sitting all AM I SUDDENLY IN THE MIDDLE OF A DRAMA SHOW?! i don't know the details but from what i've understood from my mom she didn't want to let them stay at their house because it was "dangerous", and then i overhear comments that are basically like they're worried about getting punched. i'm just ?!?!?!?! i mean i know not everyone has had a rosy home life but honestly, my parents have always been loving and happy with each other from what i've seen; i just don't really understand married couples fighting awfully. i even asked my mom about it once, and she said that they never really fought much and if they did, they made sure not to let me or my brother see it so as not to scare us.

I'M JUST SO LOST MAN I DON'T GET IT OR WHAT'S HAPPENING... i don't even know if they're getting a divorce even my mom doesn't know even though it sounds like they really should. idk i just feel like i got dropped into the middle of a drama period show.
 
 
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21 July 2012 @ 05:25 am
as this is the only thing i have to spend time on at 5:30am i'm so cool right.

potential tl;dr yeaaah )

LMAO THIS WAS THE LONGEST TL;DR EVER GOD
 
 
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29 June 2012 @ 08:46 pm
have you ever just wanted to watch your friend cry and scream as their dreams are shattered and they come out heartbroken

because this is me right now tbh

i don't know where these dumbfucks got their information from but i highly doubt the heaven's feel route of fsn is getting animated sarah pretty much summed it up in a tumblr post of hers but:

1. WHY THE FUCK WOULD THEY ANNOUNCE IT AT A CONVENTION IN AMERICA
2. WHY THE FUCK WOULD THEY ANNOUNCE IT ONE WEEK (LITERALLY, ONE WEEK) BEFORE TYPE-MOON FES

i sincerely, sincerely hope everyone spazzing about it on tumblr have their dreams crushed when they realize it is not getting animated and go cry and bemoan how awful it is that they'll probably never get it

if i sound bitter and butthurt it's because i probably am but MAN I DO NOT GIVE A FLYING FUCK all the hype regarding anything fsn related has really killed any motivation i ever had to read it myself i'm sorry when i signed up to be a type-moon fan that's what i signed up for: type-moon. not EVERY FATE FRANCHISE UNDER THE SUN.

IF I'M A JACKASS I DON'T CARE

I HOPE HEAVEN'S FEEL NEVER GETS ANIMATED BECAUSE I DON'T GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT IT AND I PROBABLY NEVER WILL THANKS TO YOU FUCKS WHO NEVER SHUT UP ABOUT FSN
 
 
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25 June 2012 @ 08:29 pm
so the other day i had this dream where i was catching up with an online friend who i haven't really talked to in a long time and it made me happy

when i woke up i was actually really disappointed that it didn't actually happen but then i realized

that in that same dream gsc finally updated with news about the rereleases and shiki was officially being rereleased

i was like WELL SHIT OF COURSE IT WAS A DREAM GSC HATES ME

mfw this shit is plaguing me even in my dreams sadpatheticperson.jpg
 
 
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23 June 2012 @ 05:54 pm
i think that one of the things that upsets me the most is when someone tells me they want to do something with/for me and then they just... don't. it's like, i thought they were telling me that because they wanted to have fun with me or doing it because they cared and wanted to make me happy a bit. so of course, i would say yes because i want to have fun too or because i'm grateful and happy that they would do something like that.

so when they don't it's like a punch in the gut like "oh, so you never really cared about it like i did"

or i'm just really oversensitive which is a likely cause for all this but... if you tell me something like that and i say yes, i'm going to end up expecting something, y'know?
 
 
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21 June 2012 @ 06:50 pm
oh but first have an icon post YO SARAH THERE'S SOME SION ICONS IN THERE THAT MIGHT PING YOU

but okay this is really just about my grad ceremony last night blah blah irl stuff

also i just want to spam this arc icon everywhere CUTIE PATOOTIE )
 
 
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09 June 2012 @ 03:22 am
today i had graduation rehearsal at my high school, and it was surreal knowing that... well, that was really the last time i'd ever have to step foot there. i'm planning on visiting a few teachers next year but huh. i really am done with high school. i guess overall it was pretty nice, but if it taught me anything it was that i really don't like people LMAO.

however i'm happy that most of my high school goals came true!! those goals being
1. fake sick
2. ditch a class
3. see a food fight

the only one that never came true was to actually get in a fight... u_u alas, but 3/4 isn't too bad i'd say. it was great because the food fight was literally the day before exams started haha. granted i ditched a class twice both times accidentally because i slept in, but that counts, right?! and last year i just felt really depressed one day and didn't want to go to school...

all in all i'm done with high school \o/ the change will probably be a bit scary at first, but i'm looking forward to college. but before that, now i can enjoy a nice, long summer...
 
 
 
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20 February 2012 @ 12:56 am
ahahaha oh god i just

i feel like i'm wasting my life away i don't know how to prioritize things i should be focusing on things like scholarships and driving and getting my license and all these important things that are necessary to, y'know, the rest of my FUTURE and whatnot but instead i sit in front of my laptop doing nothing literally nothing because lately i can't even bring myself to do tags it's like

wow maybe i should just drop some characters or from some games but then i can't even bring myself to do that because it's like NO I LOVE MY CR WHEN I CAN ASS MYSELF TO BE ACTIVE I STILL WANT FUN TIMES I DON'T WANT TO DISAPPOINT MY FRIENDS but technically am i not already doing that since i do nothing to begin with

i'm so lazy and it's such a problem especially since my dad is going to have to leave for a new job, my brother and i are going to have be in charge of things like cooking dinner for four and maintaining the house and systems and even the thought of that is scaring me i don't know how to deal with responsibilities and things i have to do

itp kaye is a lazy and worthless shit who can't ass herself to do anything and this post is full of self-loathing and pity w e l p good job self good job at least ranting is good right i can pretend this did me some good right c_c
 
 
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14 January 2012 @ 02:01 am
 
WIP WHOOPS )